& Senseless Secrets: Archive

After all is said and done

The pregnancy is over. There were moments when I thought it would never end, and now I feel a little empty…literally. I know I didn’t keep up with this like I wanted to. I’m sure I will have even less time now with a brand new baby to take care of. It’s surreal. I mean absolutely mind blowing every time I look at his face. I can’t even begin to describe it. Liam...

Feb 18th

Maybe this is incredibly selfish of me but I need someone to lean on too and this situation is very bad for my mental health. I have to pretend like I’m fine though and I will because I love you and I understand.

Jan 2nd

No matter how hard I try to make things better I just make it worse especially if I try and consider any of my own feelings. So this year I pretend like my feelings are non existent or I jump from a roof with a rope to me neck. Happy new year

Jan 1st

How can I be so in love with someone I’ve never seen or spoken with. But every movement and flutter says everything I’ve ever wanted to hear.

Dec 26th

I’m getting another ultrasound today. It’s been months and for some reason I’m nervous as hell.

Dec 10th

I wish I could do something to spite you.

Oct 9th

You can't tell me that these aren't so cute. →

I finally found out the sex of my baby. He is a boy and we are naming him Liam Michael Malone. It’s bizzare growing a relationship with someone so close to you and yet so far.

Sep 24th

If you gots a buns in the oven check this out for... →

Sep 11th

For all you bike lovers and i phone users →

Sep 5th

It is all to ironic that I made that earlier post.

Aug 30th

I’m doing some research for a baby shower. I don’t really know to much about anything apparently so if anyone has any legit advice I’d like to hear it. I know I want it to be coed and less like that typical tea and crumpets in a butterfly garden with ridiculous hats and stuff. That’s definitely not me…at all. I’m at 16 weeks now. On the 18th I get to find out...

Aug 30th

15 weeks

15 weeks. that is all.

Aug 22nd

i feel… unhappy sometimes. and i don’t know what to think of it.

Aug 5th

defeat.

I feel it right now in my brittle bones. It’s just getting into that evasive light that seems more and more impossible every passing day. I feel like I am failing the life inside of me and that’s just not an option. Ever.

Jul 20th

confession:

I have gotten sick everyday for almost a month. I am fearful of food.

Jul 19th

Jul 17th

Jul 7th

i think

i found the one thing i can eat without feeling like GARBAGE. Capncrunch! super. :]

Jul 7th

.i don't write anymore.

This pregnancy has been interesting so far. The engagement has obviously been placed on the back burner but nothing has changed between Nathan and I. If anything we’ve grown closer. However, the changes I find, are within myself. I’m less patient, weaker physically, I cry and I am constantly sick. I know these are the side notes of pregnancy but it makes me fearful that I won’t...

Jul 7th

Jul 3rd

Jul 2nd

Jun 8th

I've had something of the sort...

I’m going home for my brother’s high school graduation. I’ve been looking forward to this and dreading it equally since I decided to make the trip. My family and I had a falling out a long time ago. It’s been years so we’ll see what comes of this. I don’t think anything good. BUT, my little brother is graduating school and he’s done super well for himself...

Jun 4th

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May 15th

Reblog if you live in Orlando or the surrounding...

ohchaaabraah: raphaels: alphabeta: shutupshayla: lssgbbn: bobbysoxerrr: screamyourlungsout: robgonemild: rynhr: jonoh: (via alisaferrara)

May 13th

Apr 19th

Apr 18th

“They were a fancy doughnut place. They had dicks.”

– Kyle Malone; Portland, OR 2009

Apr 18th

Apr 13th

“I’m a jack of all trades, but I am a master of none.”

Apr 2nd

“Some give up their designs when they have almost reached the goal; while others,...”

– Herodotus

Mar 26th

Manchester Orchestra's second video installment →

Mar 24th

“Life is too short to play or hear Freebird.”

– Isaac Brock, Modest Mouse - “Paper Thin Walls [Live]” (Baron Von Bullshit Rides Again) (via nmjon)

Mar 23rd

Mar 22nd

Confession:

A Bold Confession: I think I am dying. I’m sick of seeing doctors. I’m sick of being sick. I’m sick.

Mar 21st

Mar 18th

Mar 15th

Mar 14th

Watch

I cannot even begine to decribe my excitement for this record to come out. I have ben so patiently waiting and everyday, we’re a day closer to it. Here is the first of 11 videos for their upcoming cd Mean Everything to Nothing. I can already tell, epic. I hope you love it as much as I do…

Mar 11th